Melancholikós Melody

Probable last post?

2010-01-16T00:02:00.002+08:00

Alright.. I think I have more than enough things on hand to handle that I think I won't be updating this blog any longer.. Twitter is a much convenient way of updating people about my life!! See yazzz at twitter!!

@dannykickers

Just a little update

2009-12-01T00:35:00.002+08:00

I have to say I have never regretted making my decisions cos' I knew what was coming. There are those times which you set out to achieve something which you felt hard work would in return, earn you what you wanted but deep down inside, your gut feeling is telling you that it will never happen.. That's what has been circulating my mind for the past week and it not a great feeling to have!!

Is anyone sharing the feeling of, I love that one thing / person, but I don't want to?

It's just a little update.. Near to completing the long entry which has been missing for so long.

Buzzed!!

2009-11-11T00:36:00.003+08:00

Really tied these days. Updates coming up soon once the concert is over!!

Just a little bit of whining..

2009-10-12T13:53:00.002+08:00

FML!! Things just can't get any better these days can it? Good start to school so far but haven't have much interesting stuffs to blog about these days. Plus I can't wait for the reflections opening day and the concert.. Everything is gonna be so freaking cool!!! I'm having mixed emotions right now but.. Whatever!! That's all.. Ciao!!

Finally~

2009-10-01T00:22:00.002+08:00

I don't care who it is, I don't care what it takes, I am going to bring things to an equivalent level or higher...

Preview day!!!

2009-09-30T00:40:00.008+08:00

Today was the first preview for Zaini to see how far we have came to for our preparations.

That's what they came in.....

Raffy demonstrated his PINOY style with a little entertainment along with Azhar..sadly cannot be uploaded here but will upload it in facebook.. it's a MUST WATCH!!

In summary:

( The both of them are talking in their own language, one from Philippines and the other is a Singaporean Muslim. ) They are trying to act like they are having this conversation with one another when they don't even understand what the other party is talking about~~ Coming up with all sorts of jokes.. lol.. enjoy the "PINOY SHOW!" soon!!

And here's my set with Sufie ( His microphone's got some problem so it's very soft in the beginning and my voice is just recovering).. please do give us some comments cos we'd like to make it better!

Sorry it's a last minute confirmation of the song arrangement today and also last minute addition of some musicians like Raffy and Elijah on the drum.. So it's the best we could have done till now.. =) oh yah.. please put on your headphones for a clearer sound.. lol..

@ TRCC

2009-09-29T02:40:00.004+08:00

No practice today! It was cancelled as Cheng had to leave early, Hannan could not make it.. but that did not stop me from making my way down to TRCC to look for the replugios!! =)

Went to the jamming room first and there was Fifi, Mal, Adam, Qader, and Warren. They did this song, which I cannot remember the title, which they say that it'd suit my current emotions.. touched man.. =)

Packed up and headed for deck at about 7 plus and here are some of the retarded moments.. lol

I wonder what "Pinoy" is digging man... ~~~

Fifi when he is "ABNORMAL"

Fifi when he is "NORMAL" ( Ps: Fi, told you I will upload this picture )

As usual, 2/3 of the Romantico Boys and their antics~

The Gay-ish moments shared proudly!! Azhar, Fifi, Me!! lol..

And the even more Gay-ish........

Starts with Fifi...

Then Mal joins in.. WTF!!! ( Mal claims that both their heads form a heart shape )

Really touching song!

2009-09-28T03:15:00.005+08:00

This is a freaking touching song.. You can just totally feel the song.. If you can't then it's either you have no emotions or whatever, it doesn't matter.. =)

Just updated my blog with my own Top 20 songs.. lol.. Take some time and listen to it.. Will constantly update!! =D

Replug Concert!!!

2009-09-28T01:37:00.005+08:00

Replug concert- "LIVE @ THE RED CARPET, is coming up in NOVEMBER 10-11 ( Tuesday and Wednesday Respectively )

@ THE REPUBLIC CULTURAL CENTRE STUDIO!!

Please give us your full support!! =D

Tickets are priced at $5 !! Please contact Dhivyah @ 90218151 or Michelle @96262667

or.... you can call me directly too @ 90694573 to get the tickets or more information about it!!

FML

2009-09-21T23:58:00.004+08:00

Trying to take it in my stride for whatever that has happened.

Whatever you think, you feel, you do, doesn't even affect me. I don't need no warning and I function under my own set of disciplines. I don't see a need for me to please you. Please stop thinking that you are one hell of a great person who would never make a single mistake. You really think you are that great? Prove it with your actions and your own achievements, not whatever that's just being said but not done.

2009-09-07T00:58:00.002+08:00

She's just cute when she's asleep.. =)

[Johor trip on 27/8/09] & [Fishy's minority night out]

2009-09-07T00:50:00.007+08:00

Alright, Here's the short update which I have failed to do so for such a long period of time!! =D

Starting from the very very first event of the few during this entire holidays so far,

The Class Minority to Johor :

(From Left to right) Veronica, Benson, Cipi, Jeff, Azura.

Benson and I ordered the same dish, mixed grill~ ( It is super cheap and super FILLING!!)

Haven't taken much photos on that day.. but Cipi ending her Malaysia trip with a short game of DDR with Veronica. Should look at the way they play.. just so unlike the Cipi I have always seen in class..

Next up~ The IMM Fishy minority's night out!!

Got home at bout' 11am in the morning after spending the night with GF @ the airport cos' she was having isomnia...Slept till bout' 4pm then off to Shisha!!

Haris, Fuad, & Erni looking at what is available..

Nana told me not to post this photo cos' she looked devastated but here I am still posting it up..

Fuad and I ( We used to be labelled by people as Chris Tucker and Jackie Chan..lol! )

Erni & Nana & Haris

Smokey~~~

And to end this post~ here's a photo of us that's taken on the way sending baby home after visiting my great-grandmother @ the hospital..

Should see the way my great-grandmother was delighted to see her~~ hmmmmm~

2009-08-23T21:08:00.001+08:00

Ain't gonna give up till I put up a good fight..

Measure of Courage..?

2009-08-12T00:00:00.006+08:00

I've just said it..Getting the courage wasn't easy with alot of considerations running through my mind.. There are factors to consider too if you don't see it from my point of viwe..No matter how you feel in any situations, you have to face the facts and to be honest, it wasn't very optimistic..I've never expected for it to come to this stage and reason why I have been trying to avoid these, the facts wasn't going my way...I wanted to walk away and just put everything behind me but I would be living in denial..Avoidance would bring me no-where I know and that's why I admitted and decided to just face it and let known of how I feel..

Courage cannot be determined by if a person dares to say things out, it's determined by how sincere and how capable of doing what he/she sets out to do..I know I might have taken quite a while but still I've said it..Now, what is your response to it?

I'm tired of mind games...Why make things so complicated? Why does people constantly forgets the beauty of simplicity? Simplicity makes things sweet, lasting, and most importantly, sincere. At least, that's what I believe.. That's not being naive.. Think about it....

I'm sinking into a sand pit

2009-08-10T23:17:00.002+08:00

I feel so F*&ked up...trying to turn my back against you isn't gonna be easy......

Back!!

2009-08-09T02:01:00.004+08:00

I haven't had the time to blog, haven't had the time to upload photos, haven't had the time to plan for revisions, haven't had the time to practice for the internal performance. Argh!! I feel so screwed up.. To make things worst, I just checked my UT2 cognitive results and guess what? I got an E.. From an A to E. haha..How great things can be right? How could things be such? I don't get it how they mark our papers and why they have such DPDP (Different people, Different perspectives) modules. It's unfair to get us to say our stand and substantiate and when they mark it, there is a standard answer to it..

Now, after today's performance, is the start of the revision for UT3... There can be no slacking period, It's all about the final dash and the very tight time management that I have been so lacking lately... Die also gotta get the grades up again in UT3!!!

Went to mediacorp to support Jacintha in Vasantham Star ( A singing competition ). I felt so uneasy not understanding the slightest bit of the language but I have no choice!! I am there to support a friend.. Argh!!

Weekend gone..

2009-08-03T01:27:00.002+08:00

I have yet to respond to my facilitators regarding about the arrangement of the tuition class, I have yet to find a pair of jeans that I want to buy, I have yet to start on my revision for UT3, I have yet to practice for the performance, I have yet to think of what song to do for the internal... Argh!! The weekend is too short and I have too many things on hand to deal with!!

Something, some-one, somehow, somewhere, I have to find that motivation to get me through the remaining 3 weeks of school..

Time is passing so fast that I really need a time-out..

Feeling so sloppy......

2009-07-29T23:02:00.004+08:00

Alright, my motivation is running really really low and that is affecting my studies, my practises, MY LIFE in short! Everything seems to be out of place and I am really struggling. To make things worst, I am struggling to keep my emotions under control and I am going bonkers soon!! Argh!! Full of frustrations now..

Pain and tiredness is all I feel after the soccer session with Darren, Desmond, and Zam.. Can't believe what I did in the last 10 minutes of the game just trying so hard to end the game.. Really made a fool of myself but I can't take it! My knee is hurting to the max now..

A good weekend's rest...

2009-07-25T17:17:00.002+08:00

Hey Hey everyone!! I fully re-charged now! haha! Slept for a full 12 hours and now I am ready to go!!! Physically only.. Mentally still need alot more charging... =) andddddd I am feeling really really bored at home!!!

Can't take my mind off her...

Tired and worn out..

2009-07-20T01:41:00.004+08:00

So tired and worn out after this week's UT. Finally managed to score an A with cognitive!! UT 2 was so far so good but all it went down for programming.. Think I am gonna fail that one real badly this time.. W14R please take note that our remedial study session will start this week, will keep you guys notified about the time and day.. have yet to be able to sort it out. anyway........ I am so tired now.. got to go sleep or tmr will be another late attendence to my legendary record setting attendence in my life of schooling.. hmmm.. nights!!

Ong Zhi Rong, a.k.a Sky, a.k.a, my ai ai. His birthday treat from Justin...

Here's me with the super cute baby--> nicknamed "Xiao Pang Zi" haha..

ps: 小贼, welcome aboard to the "ship".. =D

2009-07-13T23:36:00.003+08:00

I am feeling so tired right now!! Didn't even sleep well last night!! It's been so long since I've reached school on time and I am gonna continue this all the way till the end of this semester.. It's somehow too late for me to save this semester so I will be looking for the best that I can achieve for this semester and chiong real hard for semester 2.. UT was great!! At the very least I am beginning to be able to complete all the questions before time was up unlike the previous UT.. Coginitive last week was also terrible, unble to complete questions amounting to 11 marks!! WTH!! Anyway, went to the library to study with Claire after school and stayed there till 9pm before going down to the deck to look for the replugios for a hang out.. Went home with Dilly and Ariff as usual cos' it's on the way and took a couple of photos of Dilly and him doing some real stupid faces.. haha.. Will upload it tmr!! :D Still can't understand what the hell is going on with maths so I am just gonna go to bed now and wake up at probably around 4am in the morning to study for it.. shag!! Cheers and I'mmm out!!

Can't believe that I dugged out 3 thermometers from my bag... Didn't even know that I have so many of them.. -.-"
Here's the dumbass photos that dill and I took.. I look so "asking for it"!!!
Yes, it is Aishah who is carring Sly.. A GF carrying her sick BF.. hmmmmm...
Everyone, this is Dhiv! haha... Dhiv, I said I will put you on my blog..

Dilly, did I tell you that you are such a fun person that I can post alot of your photos on my blog? Here's his 2nd one, the monkey face after the CLEOPATRA make-up..

Work sucks big time!!

2009-07-13T01:05:00.004+08:00

Alright... Haven't been able to blog for quite a few days cos' I was working!! Work was very disappointing as I made my first return to JP since I left the company.. Staffs there( those that were on shift today with respect) is really LAZY to the MAX, USELESS to summarise.. I miss the old bunch of staffs that used to work at JP.. They made work so fun and everyone is doing their work at their best!! Sigh.. Now I know why there are so many complaints there and the sales has dropped significantly.. I am so gonna tell Putri about that..!! That's it.. I am going to bed!! Still gotta go for the annual staff party tomorrow when there is a UT the following day.. Ahhhhh... I am gonna go there for only like maximum an hour and I am going off.. Just for the sake to not pay 12bucks for the ticket for those whose names have been submitted and did not go.. and also, to catch up with whoever that is still working..

To Claire, " I very "BAD" meh?!! haha.. stop eating spicy stuffs luh for goodness sake..

I am feeling soooooooo bored...

2009-07-07T12:55:00.003+08:00

Class is finally getting more and more boring.. and the school system is really getting more and more stupid.. Especially the thermometer check thing at the school gate.. In the initial stages of the H1N1 spread they could afford to put those thermal scanner at the school doors. Now they don't even bother to do so when it has really hit the school!

Update!! =)

2009-07-05T01:06:00.005+08:00

Just finished a day full of shit and tiring work!! So darn tireeeed man!! The customers just seem to come from all directions and they DON'T know the meaning of " Please wait to be seated "!!! Argh!! They think that they are at a hawker centre eh?!?! haha.. Whatever la!! It's over now.. Here's some photo's of what has happened over the past 2 days after school! =D

Dilly's new "cleopatra" look!!
Azhar's and I ( Cigar moments )

loving right??!! lol !!
IQ-malfunction(a.k.a POTATO) & "Taufiq" stop it sia!!
When I say Dilly you say " TIT-F*%^k" haha... kidding eh Dilly!! =)
Dilly!!!

Moodless... Tomorrow then upload everything..

2009-07-04T00:32:00.002+08:00

Totally moodless now.. Whenever I leave the group and I am alone I ponder alot.. Why is it at the wrong time that it's happening? There are alot of why and how.. but I am gonna take this very night to sort things through.. Feeling darn vexed up now....

Updating blog tomorrow!!

2009-07-02T23:40:00.002+08:00

I am feeling sooooo tired right now.. Didn't have enough sleep last night! Will update my blog tomorrow for the happenings today along with the highlights of Dilly's performance @ the esplanade!! =D Oh yah!! once again...HAPPY 19th birthday DILLY!! =D hope you like the "present"!! =P

Finally the day is here!

2009-07-02T01:01:00.004+08:00

Can't wait for the return of school !! and.... guess what?? It's the end of the really STUPID e-learning shit. Really sick and tired of the ineffectiveness of e-learning and time wasting. Why so? Who can completely understand programming on e-learning?? Nothing to see and they tell you to try to get the program out from what you learn in the worksheet while Faci is on the other end of the cyber world "teaching" you.. Time wasting, why? They make you wreck your brain doing the solo work and end of the day they say it is not going to be counted in your module grade. Then what the hell are we doing that for? I'd rather they extend the school term for only ONE WEEK for goodness sake. It's not like we are missing class for 2 weeks and more! I think everyone would prefer that than e-learning!! I just can't wait to return to class and I can't wait to start on the performance practice again..

Okay.....Next blog I've gotta have some photos in it.. It's getting very plain!!!

Back to Work!!

2009-06-29T00:19:00.002+08:00

Finally I am back to work!! After resting for a month after O.R.D I am back!! Where? Fish and Co. it is.. haha.. Started work on Saturday with a full shift till 11pm and an evening shift today which also, ended at 11. Was fun though returning to work. Having some mixed feelings right now.. Part of me is feeling really bored cos' I have been working there for soooo god darn long and I really hope that I can find a new environment to learn something new!! BUTTTT, I am still glad to return to Fish and Co. cos' I am finally using more of my memory spaces!! Why so? Remembering my customers orders without writing it down!! haha! Haven't done that for so long already and lucky for me, my memory still have yet to fail me. haha! Work was alright but consider that I've just returned to work I am still quite off my pace in work compared to the past.. Can't wait for the first pay check!! Have so many things to pay off!! OMG!!

I am sooooo looking forward to the week after!! haha!!

Stuck!!

2009-06-25T01:04:00.002+08:00

Today's practice wasn't really that fabulous.. Stuck at song choice, and the worst thing, don't even know how to arrange the song.. The feel just doesn't come to us doesn't it? Feel darn bad that wasn't able to start practising with Naddy! I'm so sorry Naddy, if you ever see this luh...(Tomorrow we'd get the guys to get the tune out yeah? :D

ps : FiFi ah FiFi, why ah we have to go through such shit man?! hmmm... haha..

Really really bad day @ school !!

2009-06-23T23:18:00.002+08:00

Science class was a real pain in the neck!! I guess Cheryl, Claire, Zam and Benson agree with it right? haha!! I am feeling so tired right now.. Will be having practice session @ school library after school tomorrow so band members of " Douggay Style " & " Pose 69 " , must come!! =D also, MSN sucks!! Technical error all day long..!!

A new week starts!!

2009-06-22T00:30:00.004+08:00

Today's really a laid back day..! Went out with my family darn early in the morning to visit my paternal grandmother, came home around 1130am and the moment I was home, I went back to bed.. =) rest is really what I need now! Went back to Fish & Co. to submit the application at about 10pm! Super late but the lucky thing is that I don't need an interview.. Sucks to have to start from scratch again on the OJE part.. but when one's left choiceless, you take whatever that comes.. My bank is really depleted! Most probably starting work on Thusday replacing someone at the FOH as the schedule for Monday - Thursday is already out.. So i have about 4days to do whatever I need to do before I start work otherwise there'd definitely be no time..

I am feeling so lost....

2009-06-21T01:34:00.002+08:00

Feeling so lost right now.. I am really out of ideas what I can do.. It feels like so rejected.. Sigh..

Down I go..

2009-06-20T01:08:00.003+08:00

Today's lesson is one pain in the neck for me and I seriously have no clue what the facilitator wants of us and to worsen my day, I am sooooo feeling unwell. Thanks god this is the last lesson for him and we'll have our " Yippee" back. The entire class missed his way of conducting his lesson alot!! I am trying so hard to stay normal despite being sick but I feel exhausted easily. Is it possible? There are so many things I wish to do for you but I don't want it to back fire on me. I'd never know if you'd feel irritated. I'll try though! =D Oh! I am so looking forward to working with Khim, Dilly, Wayne, Qader, "Hot Fish", Firdaus and Syazuan for a new band..! Hope this combination would be a good one though there are 2 vocalist and a rapper in it which seems quite alot luh.. Hmm..

I seriously hate today's science class!!

2009-06-16T23:53:00.002+08:00

Today was really a F%^&-ed up day for me at school! The topic for today really killed at the very least 80% of my battery life man! I totally forgot about what I have learnt and I am beginning to really feel the heat of it.. Sigh.. To end the day with a better note, I am now feeling so god darn sick. Feeling nauseous, shoulder and muscle ache. -.-

Miche: I know you might not be having a good day today, cheer up alright? Sorry for the trouble today! Thanks alot once again for your help! :)

I'm outta here!! Ciao!!

I am soooo over the moon!!!

2009-06-14T16:43:00.003+08:00

I'll NEVER recieve a better delight to my day compared to YOU texting me! =D

Replug's Sentosa Outing!

2009-06-13T01:38:00.006+08:00

Thing started off quite late in the noon at around 3 ( that's when we just headed for Sentosa! ) and for today we had........ Mastura, Shah a.k.a Jonas Brother( Her boyfriend ), Khim, YY( Her boyfriend ), Sha, Din, Iqmal, FiFi, Shi Ting, John, Miche & Me!!

FiFi is "Sun-block proof"!!

Our "Gay-ish moments"

Our "Man-ish moments"

Trying to get Mal into the sea!

Proving that we are 'contactable' (Fifi giving YY a 'good' time.)

It was all playing games internally until we had a games session with some of the sports school girls..Exhausting but it was real fun..haha..sad to say but I don't have the photo's for it. hmmm. but at least I have the final group photo! :)

And last but not least to conclude, Fifi, Mal & Din wants you to see this again!

Performance @ Intercontinental Hotel!

2009-06-13T01:32:00.003+08:00

Alright! It isn't my performance alright! I was just there to support the "Romantico Boys's" FIRST ever performance!! and of course, P.D.T too!! Great performance by both the bands, seriously!

Here's P.D.T

and here's the UNPROFESSIONAL photo shoot of the Romantico Boys!

You guys gotta watch the "KAU APESAL" a.k.a What's your problem, in Malay! I've uploaded the first video on my facebook and the 2nd one is currently in editing process. Hang on just a little while more before I upload the video over here yeah!! Still trying to figure out the editing! haha. Before I sign off, here's a real gayish moment of Sly and Fi..hmm~

Was there even a slight chance?

2009-06-10T01:44:00.004+08:00

I wonder how it is progressing.. Is it on track still? sigh.. I really don't know what to do.. I don't wanna miss the golden opportunity..

I did "Study"!!

2009-06-10T00:52:00.005+08:00

Didn't have the time and energy to update the blog for the past 2 days.. Shack man..

Went to sentosa on Monday with Nizham, Manfred and Ikhlas.. Haha.. Though it is gay but still, who cares! After which Ikhlas and I went down to CWP to meet up with the replugios at the deck. Damn free right? Lol!

Tuesday..... Supposed to meet Zam and Claire 12 at school but in the end I overslept! Sorry Zam and Claire! After the study session, went over to TRCC. Fifi, Mal and Din ( Aiyah, The Romantico boys la ), was jamming so we just hung around till 6-630 before making our way down to the deck again. Lol! Same old things that we do there, chilling and chit chat session ( with the viewing of "the tank" videos ). Then....we headed home..

To the Romantico boys:

Din, change your msn!! lol.. Will be looking forward to the first performance on Thursday!! haha..

To Kimmy:

I know it wasn't a great start for you today. Sorry I was still in lala land when you text me this morning. =( You'll pass it the next one yeah. =D Rest more la. You're always tired. hmmmm.

Replug Annual Camp 2009

2009-06-06T14:35:00.007+08:00

Oh, what a way to start off my own blog!! Still feeling the hangover of the camp! Never expected to be able to work with so many talented musicians at one go and that AWESOME!! You guys rock man!

Alright let's start.....

Day1 :

Was late for camp all thanks to the random bag check at somewhere... Everyone was a little quiet initially but after the introduction things was much better! The day went on with somehow like a talk by a TRCC sound crew, Kenny on how we should do our checks before a performance. Kenny talk was really enriching but~........LOL! no but's luh.. after that the musicians had a short lesson by, MASTER BERNIE.. <- is that how you spell it?, while the vocalists had our own short session of chit chat at the side.

now comes the super fun part of the day..

The game..

that made all of us shower so many times that our skin nearly peeled off! lol. Had to crawl on the "mat' that's covered with oil, ketchup, and i don't know what other sauces there was..LOL!

After that, comes the hard work, preparing for a performance that's on the 2nd day of camp. We had to re-arrange a song choice of our band and perform it internally. It was a really challenging part on our creativity.

Day 2 :

Started off the day with very low tempo, with games followed by practice sessions for the performance. The performance was a really scary one! My memory card fell out at the wrong time! Can't believe that I forgot my lyrics during the performance and to worsen it, I freaked out! LOL. All the bands were simply MIND-BLASTING!!! Great job guys! After that it was free and easy time till dinner and the seniors really did a great job in making it a truly memomrable camp to remember. We partied hard and did the replug culture, "break the stage"!

Day 3 :

Here comes the end of the camp. Sad to say all good things must come to an end and the camp was no exception. Started off with a game to summarize how much we have known each other over the past couple of days and followed with awards presentation..Thanks alot fot the "best camper" =) everyone was the best! That's why the camp was fun! =D and lastly our family photo..

So looking forward to the next Replug activity together..

Stay tuned! =D